Rewilding – to restore to it’s natural uncultivated state. Let’s take that sentence right into ourselves and sit with that like forever and let it become who we naturally are.
Mercury retrograde has this thing where it likes to bend you over when you’re not looking and do things to you to wake you the fuck up in ways that are never comfortable, and hey I’m so used to being stripped back to fuck all I’ve grown to love it and wouldn’t have it any other way because the liberation that is experienced and what I become I honestly wouldn’t want to have it any other way.
The word rewilding was repeated in my dream last night over and over again. The word was said many times and was written and shoved in my face so I think I need to pay attention to it and I have been over the last few weeks but clearly it’s really trying to get my attention now. I’ve been really thinking about my art practice and what I put out into the world through my social media pages and really asking myself, am I being raw as fuck as I would like to be on my art pages and if not why not?
I don’t think I am, not intentionally. It’s a feeling you know, it’s a feeling that I’m exploring and a feeling I have not yet expressed through my art yet. All I can say there’s a fear and I’m just sitting with it, looking at it and letting it get comfortable with me and I with it before I pull it apart gently and see what’s beneath it.
I created this page for my mediumship readings on Facebook – Blunt as Fuck Tarot Readings and that’s changed everything for me. Finally I’ve allowed myself to be myself through my work after having so much expectation thrown on me to be a certain way which I am not and never fucking will be, its given me space to really look at things and to pull myself onto the dirt and see am I being this way in everything that I do publicly?
This is the reason why I haven’t posted too much on my pages as yet, I’m feeling my way into something that has to be all me. We all put on face for many different reasons, some purposely and others not but I cannot have anything less than what’s all of me so when I find what that is or feel into what the fuck is holding me back and why I’ll share it here or on my pages or all of them I don’t know but it will be shared.
Mercury fucking retrograde can piss off now thanks and apparently it will this Wednesday. Christ almighty I’ve had enough of it. I’ve created about two pieces of art since it begun, my head’s mushy, I’m behind in my study, and I’m tired as fuck of feeling. Anyone else tired of feeling so much?
These last few weeks have felt like months, seriously months but besides all the whinging I did get a heap of stuff done, other stuff besides art that will clear the way for more art and more greenery. I’m obsessed with permaculture and anything green and that’s where my heart seems to be calling me the most nowadays besides art.
The sadness of seeing our earth in such a critical state because of us, people not humans, hurts. I’m finding this sadness has deepened to depression at times but how can you not feel depressed at times? If you’re connected you’ll feel the hurt.
I find this hurt stops me from creating too. I kind of just fall in a lull and just want to be outside more loving our Mother and putting some good stuff back into Her, sitting at the beach or forest and just listen to Her..just listening because we don’t listen anymore, we haven’t been for too long a very big reason why this world is off balance, we don’t live close to Her anymore.
Permaculture principles rule my life now and I bring it into every place of my life including my art life which I have found ways to create art in a more sustainable way which I’ll share in another post. I just think we all need to learn how to live more sustainably and be that in every aspect of our lives and share. Share the knowledge because it’s such a heart centred and harmonious practice and we all should be interested in the planet that gives too much to us.
So I’ve decided this; my writing page will be changed into a permaculture page. It’s time I’ve been studying it for a while and I want to share what we can do to help ourselves and every living being on the planet. This is the link to the Facebook page: https://www.facebook.com/theshadowandthewild/ – right now it’s still my writing page but it will be changed this Wednesday when Mercury finally fucks off. And the name will be changed then and my writing will be shared on my art page which is connected to this blog.
I’ll share more over the next week because I’m still processing too much and still feeling pain, not going to lie. xxx
I’m exploring different styles at present but one that I adore is abstract art.
What I love about abstract art is space. Space is what I’m exploring in my art at the moment and what that can offer to the viewer.
Space offers people a place to feel. To get lost for a moment in their inner world. To connect. To listen to themselves. To experience the peace of who they are.
There’s no distraction with abstraction. It silences the mind and allows the imagination to wonder and the heart to feel. To drop into the peaceful chaos of the unknown within. To go deep even for a moment.
So here is my latest piece, ‘Deep’ – acrylics on canvas.
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Thank you, just thank you. ❤️
So I’m going to ask your support again..
A new creation came out of nowhere today. I didn’t plan it, I didn’t even think about it but these days as I travel further on my path things get created spontaneously and I’ve learnt to go with it. I’m an artist after all 😊
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There’s a book in motion, there has been for a while but a page? I thought I would just come out and share it once it’s completed but I’m wondering now that maybe this is not only going to keep me balanced but to surrender to my creative process and more so my vulnerability.
My creativity pushes me to be vulnerable in places I don’t want to be. It’s helping me to heal places that’s in deep need of loving attention.
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As artists we can get caught with creating the same kind of style over and over again. I connect that with how we view life. And though many artists are open minded, I still see how we can get caught with how we think which is connected to how we feel. Art is an expression of our inner worlds after all. How can we expand the way we think if we are blocked emotionally? Because in hindsight we cannot truly expand the mind if there is no expansion of heart and any type of art whether you’re a writer, poet, photographer, musician whatever, cannot expand our comfort zone if we’re connected with only one type of style of work.
We can get comfortable with one style of work which comes naturally, and I do believe once we feel dissatisfied with this same expression over and over again that it’s time to expand. It’s scary, because we become good at something to then step out and feel vulnerable again. It’s human nature to fear the unknown but if we also explore the unknown with curiosity it lessens the fear and we then become curious explorers and even adventurers. Life has pushed me to live life on the edges, to constantly be curious, to not get too comfortable. Loss taught me that nothing is permanent, to always go with flow and don’t hang on too hard to anything or anyone, be open to change always.
I see that with art also. Expansion and growth is necessary to strengthen our practice. To revisit art appreciation every so often, it not only makes you think about your style of work but life.
To ponder these questions: are you constantly viewing life from your comfort zone? Do you push yourself to be uncomfortable for growth sake? To live life to the fullest.
Funny, you know most people will say ‘yes I do’ but on the outside looking in their life is in constant replay. Loosen the fuck up I say. Seriously, no wonder our world is fucking anal about everything and why it’s constantly wanting to destroy anything and anyone that cannot be shoved in the little shitty conformed boxes. It’s fear of expanding the heart. Don’t live a little, live a lot.
I’m leaving you this piece by Salvador Dali to ponder on. Feel beyond pain, let go. Expansion, expansion, expansion.. xxx
First of all I need to explain that the name of this site and blog has change from Sacred Spirit of Gaia to She Moon Artistry. I just felt change and I’m sure the name will change again as I change but it is the perfect description for my artwork and for the work to come. And many thanks for all the visits while I was away. Who knew that anyone would be interested to read what I write. I started this blog to reconnect with my creativity, I use it to work out my thoughts and feelings with my relationship to art I honestly believed no one else would be interested in what I write so thanks 🙂
So finally I’m back here after being pulled away from my art from a strong feeling to write and study permaculture which I’m still doing both but the insight is clear to why this happened and very thankful for the path behind and ahead.
I think my last post here was in April and even since then so much has changed again. I now have a clearer understanding of my creative energy which desperately needed to happen. I arrived at a point where I was exhausted, overwhelmed and actually needed to step away but was too stubborn to. I love art too much and throughout the whole time of not creating art I sooked all the way through it, yep I did not ashamed to admit it. There was always a longing to create but no feeling to. That in itself was incredibly painful and somewhat traumatic! truly, I’m not trying to be dramatic because when the time came to slowly reconnect with my art world it was painful I had no idea the time away from it was going to happen the way it did.
But it needed to happen. I was overwhelmed from not having a clear understanding of what was happening inside of me.
I’m a visionary artist, I surrender to what wants to come through. I don’t plan what I create I listen to prompts from my intuition. This style of painting brings so much to the surface. Unresolved emotion, breaking open what’s ready to be seen, it creates authentic and very real and deep change. I knew this to some degree but in the depth I needed to understand for my own well being. And that’s why the strong intuitive feeling to write which I see now.
Writing has always been a big part of my spiritual practice. There are times where I would write up to 3-5 times a day but when I returned to my art I didn’t feel compelled to write as much but I should’ve, I get that now. The writing process is very similar to a painting process but the writing process gives me the clarity to understand what’s happening within, what’s actually moving. I also discovered I can write poetry, fuck who knew! I had no idea I could but it goes so nicely with my art so that was a cool little plus to find out along the way.
It has also made me think what it means to me to be an artist. Even art nowadays has lost its essence in the way of originality. I belong to a few art groups on and off line and contemporary art (nothing wrong with contemporary art I love it) but really art that pushes no boundaries seems to be the only kind of art that is ‘accepted’ these days. And I’m not the only one that sees and feels this, many other artists feel the same. It’s fucking frustrating. It also puts people off from sharing their art. I’ve seen some judgemental arseholes in groups who I have seen put artwork down that is not contemporary because that’s what they feel art is. I say get fucked. That is so far from the truth. What happened to creating art for the sake of creating art regardless of what it looks like? What happened to pushing boundaries to make people think and feel outside of their small shitty conservative box? Are we going to try and put art in a box too? Not me, fuck that I refuse to. I think it’s time to create a new group. I will share that here when that happens and it’s not too far off.
So briefly that’s me so far. There’s more changes but they’re not quite ready to share yet. This blog will be kickstarted again and so happy that it is. Oh my gosh I have missed it SO bloody much. Looking forward to sharing more and reconnecting in the very near future. For now connect with me on my Facebook page here –> Astara Lak’ech and my Instagram is @shemoonartisty 🙂 xxx